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Archive for June 5th, 2011


Posted by 4love2love on June 5, 2011

I used to spend a lot of my free time, when not playing games online, looking for work or playing with my dog, writing. I’ve written hundreds of stories and poems, but most of the good stuff never really gets finished. It frustrates me that I get bored with my own stories while other people find them interesting and intense. They wanna know what happens next. I’ve been thinking about starting a new book or going over a few of the ideas I had jotted down previously and seeing what I can come up with.


I’ve been told my work is publishable material but I guess there is this fear that I will be rejected or maybe the notoriety that comes with being published if you’re good enough to be published multiple times and sell a fair few books. I don’t like to be in the spotlight, I prefer to be behind the scenes. That’s part of why I rarely post my real picture on anything on the internet, because I don’t want to be seen or noticed.


Is this a natural fear or is it something that people use as an excuse not to complete something that they love to do? In school, I was one of the best writers in all my classes that required it, I could write an essay about anything if given some facts about what I was writing. I could write a book report that would make my teachers go find the books themselves and read them. So why all the shyness now? Why the fear of completing a work and it perhaps being accepted and end up being published?


There are so many stories to tell that float around in my head day in and day out, some so fascinating I’m not sure I can put them into words at all. I guess maybe that’s part of why I started this blog. So I can express myself behind the curtain of internet anonymity and perhaps find it in myself to write again in the way that I used to write.. with passion and fervor. I would love to take a few creative writing classes, but that’s not something I can pay for at the present time.


Today I wrote a proposition for a group that would assist the state and government agencies in making sure abused children are looked after. Taking them from their homes when needed, providing counselling, emergency housing, case workers that would visit their homes, be it their biological family’s home or the foster home they are moved to when an agency responsible for placing children has placed them. It felt good to write up that proposal for a business that could be an asset to the community of where I live and beyond, if enough funding were available to provide the facilities that would be necessary and the funding to pay the staff to deal with the issues, including administrators, accountants and so on. I only thought about it a few days before writing it all up after a discussion with one of my neighbors who has a daughter that has a degree in child psychology. I enjoyed writing up the proposal very much, and think that it’s about time I start getting serious about my writing again, even while I look for a job, mostly online, in hopes to return to gainful employment.


Maybe one of these days I’ll actually complete something besides a poem and it will be available for the world to see. I certainly hope so. I’ve wanted that since I was a child. I guess just somewhere along the lines, I started to shy away from my goals. I think it’s time to make some changes and start working on my writing again because it’s important to me. I need the ability to express myself, and this only gives me a partial outlet.


I will post further information as I work on this particular goal, and of course any news of employment.


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Fire Stew

Posted by 4love2love on June 5, 2011

This is one of my most popular recipes. People come over to eat this often or when they’re here they ask if I will make it for them. I have been asked repeatedly for my recipe, and it was difficult to write it down because I make it a little different every time. I’ll change the meat, or some of the vegetables or some of the seasonings depending on my mood. So, here I will put down the basic recipe and you can play with it as you like to suit your individual tastes.

Just so  you know, this stew is meant to be very spicy, so if you don’t like spicy foods, you will need to make a lot of modifications to the recipe.

Ingredients :

  • 1-1 1/2 lbs of meat. This could be chorizo, hamburger, ground turkey, shredded chicken, venison or whatever type of meat you prefer. I would not recommend pork for this stew.
  • 2 15 oz cans of tomato sauce
  • 1 6 oz can of tomato paste
  • 1 14.5 oz can of diced tomatoes (I prefer the petites in garlic and olive oil)
  • 2 tbsp olive oil
  • 1/2 cup of sweet red wine (I generally use a cheap Merlot)
  • 5-6 whole carrots (sliced)
  • 4-5 stalks of celery (sliced)
  • 1 can or the equivalent of green beans
  • 2 cans of whole potatoes (you can actually use raw potatoes that are better for you, but I hate to peel and wait the extra time to cook for the potatoes to be ready. If you do use raw potatoes, use the small ones, like the golden or the baby reds)
  • 1/2 cup sliced Jalapeños
  • Hot sauce
  • 2 tsp chopped Cilantro (fresh or dried)
  • 1 tsp chopped Basil (fresh or dried)
  • 2 tsp chopped Parsley (fresh or dried)
  • 2-3 cloves of crushed or minced garlic
  • 1 tsp dill
  • 2 tbsp season salt
  • 2 tbsp Morton’s Nature’s Seasoning (there is a reduced salt version I prefer)
  • 2 tsp fresh ground mixed peppercorn (it comes in a grinder and is very delicious for any pepper use)
  • 2 generous splashes of lemon juice
  • 1 1/2 cup brown rice
  • 1 1/2 cup water


In a large dutch oven, set on medium-high heat, add tomato sauce, tomato paste, diced tomatoes, meat, seasonings, lemon juice, wine, olive oil, jalapeños, 4 splashes of hot sauce and cook until meat is partially done, stirring occasionally. Add water and rice along with all raw veggies. Turn up heat and stir regularly until liquid begins to boil. Allow liquid to boil for 10 minutes, stirring frequently.


Lower heat to medium-low and allow to simmer for about 30-45 minutes. Stir often enough to keep the rice from sticking to the bottom of the pan. Continue cooking until rice is done and veggies are cooked until they are cooked but still firm.


I often serve in a bowl with shredded mild cheddar cheese on top, then stir the cheese into the stew before eating. It’s absolutely delicious.


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